Leyton Orient manager Justin Edinburgh died yesterday, aged 49, five days after suffering a cardiac arrest. He has dominated my thoughts over the last 24 hours – along with football, life and death. Some of those thoughts…
If you follow football for most of your life, a false closeness can develop with football people. You feel like you know individuals, even if you don’t. In the same way you watch actors grow from child starlets into full superstars through film or television, you observe teenage boys becoming mature professionals. You see them journey through a professional playing career of around ten to fifteen years, if they’re lucky, and sometimes become football managers or pundits when they finish playing.
If they become neither of those, then the chances are that they fade out of your consciousness.
If you even vaguely track their journey and remember them as younger people, you feel a false familiarity if they reappear to you twenty years down the line. For anyone who watches a reasonable amount of football in Britain, the omnipresent Gary Lineker virtually feels like one of the family, whether you like him or not.
(But he never calls, never writes. He does tweet a lot though, to give him his dues).
Justin Edinburgh is part of the Tottenham side which first wins my support, aged 10. They have England’s Italia 90 stars of Lineker and Gascoigne in their ranks. And they have Justin Edinburgh. I remember Edinburgh’s ill-tempered youthful duel with a skinny 19-year old Roy Keane in the 1991 FA Cup final against Nottingham Forest.
Amongst my early memories of attending matches at White Hart Lane is Edinburgh going sprawling to the turf under a challenge during a pulsating 3-3 draw against Liverpool in 1993. This happens right in front of our stand behind the goal, a certain penalty. But it is not given, possibly because we have already been awarded a penalty in the game – one that was less clear. We are livid. It is the most unjust thing to ever happen.
A spectacular last ditch goal-line clearance at Aston Villa also stands out, but in truth I mostly remember blaming him for goals Tottenham concede. Whether my youthful judgement is entirely sound, it’s hard to know.
Edinburgh spends the best part of his career as Tottenham left back, ten years. That alone is no small feat, albeit in a team locked into mid-table Premier League obscurity. He eventually moves to Portsmouth before finally becoming a player manager back in his native Essex with Billericay Town.
The next time Edinburgh appears on my radar is in his role as manager of Newport County. He has earned them promotion to the Football League the previous season, and I’m beginning to photograph professional matches. He is the subject of my first ever publication in a profile piece about him having to work his way up through the leagues in management. In the picture he appeals to the referee during a lively League Two match against Chesterfield in December 2013. He is emblazoned with an exasperated expression I will photograph many more times over the next year or so.
He is a distinctive, barrel-chested man with large features: mouth, smile, teeth, nose, ears. Narrow eyes though. A likeable geezer but you wouldn’t want to cross him. One of those people you often hear referred to as having ‘big personalities’ or being ‘larger than life’, that confident Essex yell never far away.
As photographers you never have access to these people like reporters. You never really converse or interact, unless perhaps you are a club photographer. As a photographer generally, working human relationships tend to be cosmetic and mechanical. In and out. Move on. Next job.
Edinburgh’s spell with Newport is a success but he may think he’s taken them as far as he can when he decides to leave the club for Gillingham in 2015. It’s unusual for managers to choose to leave, rather than be sacked or part ways ‘by mutual consent’, especially at this level.
I photograph Edinburgh take his new Gillingham side to Bristol City in March that year before he fades from my awareness again.
In recent weeks, football news informs me he has achieved another promotion from non-league with East London side Leyton Orient. Pictures show him celebrating in typically robust fashion, there’s a video of him in the dressing room congratulating and celebrating with his players.
Last week I see a headline mentioning his health. A quick Google reveals he has been admitted to hospital but details are vague. Last night I see a headline reporting his death and am instantly stung, stunned, shocked, saddened: all those tired but true reaction words. Edinburgh suffered a cardiac arrest on Monday and died on Saturday. He leaves a wife and two children, as well as a big presence that will be sorely missed throughout football.
Sudden death is always shocking. When you have that sense of familiarity, of knowing someone and observing them from a young age, and of having photographed someone regularly, it feels all the more shocking. Here is a man who worked closely with health and fitness professionals day-to-day over many years. And apparently he can have a heart attack and die, just like that. It is a sobering reminder about life being fragile and precious and all those over-sentimental cliched quotes, and how they are true.
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